Liam put his arm around my waist and held me gently as we gazed over the river. The water was dirty with mud, and the area smelt from the recent flood, but the moment was magical nonetheless. To be honest, any moment with Liam was magical, after all I was determined he was my soul-mate, and he was also a demon.
Being a demon may be a bit strange, and also not seem all that great. It’s true that it was strange, and at first had been a big surprise, but it wasn’t like he was evil, it just meant he had awesome skills, and damn good looks. Although it wasn’t just the awesomeness that attracted me, his whole personality was everything I’d ever wanted in a guy. He was kind, selfless, chivalrous, and although not to everyone’s liking: prude, like me.
We’d met by accident a few weeks ago, and had instantly fallen in love with each other. We already knew everything there was about other, and despite not having kissed once, we were truly somewhat Disney-style in love.
“I’m so glad I met you.” He whispered happily beside me. I smiled and cuddled closer to him.
“I know what you mean. I was so lonely before I met you.” I said sadly. Liam held me a bit tighter.
“Same. I imagine I was a bit different. I had a different girl ask me out almost every day,” He said regretfully, “but it just made me feel even more lonely. They only liked me because of my looks, none of them even knew who I was.” He turned and looked at me, “then I met you.”
I grinned, “well I didn’t have someone asking me out every day, but I’ve had my fair share of creepers. Which you’d think would make me think I’m somewhat attractive, but it doesn’t. It just made me feel dirty, and unsafe… and lonely.” I added before closing my eyes and sighing. “I don’t know how long I would’ve lasted if I hadn’t met you when I did.” Liam leant his head against mine and we sat in a comfortable silence.
“I… can help change that if you’d like.”
I looked up at Liam and raised an eyebrow. “Change what?”
“Feeling unsafe.” He said, pain filling his eyes at the thought of pain possibly coming my way. I shook my head and grinned.
“But I have you now.” I said warmly. Liam smiled as well but shook his head.
“This isn’t a romance manga where the boyfriend always comes in the nick of time.” He said truthfully. “There might be times… when I can’t be there for you.”
I grimaced and nodded slowly. “I guess you’re right. But, what can you do?” I asked tilting my head. He raised his eyebrows and grinned mischievously.
“Give you some of my strength.” He said smiling wide. I looked at him quizzically.
“How does that work?”
Liam bit his lip, “well, if I…” He paused and blushed deeply. “If I kiss you, I sort of… share my strength.” He said carefully. “Just imagine that there’s a gate in your mind where spiritual power is stored.” He started, gazing into the distance. “It’s a bit like Naruto’s chakra.” He added with a grin. “Demons have access to this at all times, and also great stores of this power. Humans have average amounts, but they can never access it. Something about… kissing a demon, releases the gate and you can use the spiritual power.” He said turning toward me. “Unlike Naruto, you can’t use it for cool jutsus but it does allow you to use more strength than what your muscles are actually capable of.” He paused and looked to the side, “and in demons it lets you use personal abilities, like how I can make fire and use telekinesis.” He finally fell into silence, gazing softly at me.
I stared a little incredulously. “That’s… crazy.” I said, not quite sure what to say. He smiled and laughed.
“It is a little. Did you… want to do it?” He asked reluctantly. I thought for a minute, wondering just what to say.
“Well… it sounds great. I’ve always wanted to be, well, special. But, I don’t know if I’m ready for it. Can you iuno.. take it back if I don’t like it?” I asked shyly. Liam laughed and shook his head.
“I can’t take it back, but you can learn not to use it. For example, when I’m walking around university and such, I keep my “spiritual gate” mostly closed.” He said, motioning ‘spiritual gate’ with bunny ears. “Otherwise I’d be likely to break something by accident.” He said laughing. I smiled widely imagining such a circumstance. “For example, I can have an arm wrestle with you with just normal human-strength if I close the gate completely. But if I started losing, I’d have to use more strength.” He said grinning cheekily.
“Only if you started losing?” I asked with a raised eyebrow. Liam nodded.
“Of course. I couldn’t have myself losing to a girl.” He said sarcastically; folding his arms. I laughed softly and shook my head.
“Fair enough. So… you’ll teach me how to keep the gate closed?” I asked, suddenly serious. Liam nodded.
“Can do.”
“Are there any risks?” I asked sceptically. Liam grimaced.
“Sort of. Once I kiss you, you might get pretty weak for a few minutes, maybe even pass out.” He said slowly. “But other than that, nothing bad can happen. Well, it never has in the past.” He said shrugging.
“In the past?” I asked, feigning jealousy. He laughed.
“I haven’t kissed anyone before. Just other human born demons, it’s sort of like a shared memory. Sorry, it’s hard to explain.” He said scratching the back of his neck. I grinned.
“I think I get the gist.” I said smiling. “But how do I know this isn’t just a trick so you can kiss me?” I asked, suddenly conscious of that fact. Liam’s face reddened.
“Well, I must admit it would be nice to kiss you.” He said bashfully, “but I know you’re not into that stuff. And, I’m not ecstatic about it. I’d just like you to well, know what it feels like to have confident in yourself. But, because it’s you I’m kissing, I don’t mind.” He said sweetly. I grinned and felt my face reddening as well.
“…Uh… What sort of kiss? It’s doesn’t involve…” I paused feeling nauseous as my imagination ran wild. “It doesn’t involve tongue does it?”
Liam shook his head with understanding. “No. Just sort of like… just more than a peck… enough to well….” He paused uncomfortably. “I don’t know how to word it.” He finished hiding his face. I smiled underneath my embarrassment.
“So… you have to spit in my mouth?” I asked jokingly, raising an eyebrow. Liam laughed and nodded.
“Pretty much.” He said hiding his amusement. I bit my lips and looked out over the water.
“I… guess that’d be okay.” I said, already feeling my body weakening in fear. The more I thought about it, the worse it got. My arms shook uncontrollably and my heart raced far too quickly. I was having a fight or flight moment, like I always did when I was put in this sort of situation. I felt a hand on my arm.
“Are you okay?” Liam asked, dispelling some of my fears. I shook my head.
“I’m having a panic attack.” I admitted, angry at myself. Liam turned to face me and kissed my forehead.
“Calm down, it won’t hurt.” He said gently. I shook my head.
“I know... it’s just, it’s against everything I ever told myself to believe in. I had an attack like this when I was asked out for the first time. I said no, but was forced to be near the person for about half an hour, and the whole time I was freaking out like this. I don’t know why, it just happens.”
Liam held me tightly. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have asked.” He said sadly. I shook my head again.
“No… I want to, I just need a bit of time.” I paused. “Arg, now I sound like all I want is your powers.” I said angrily. Liam smiled lightly.
“No you don’t. I understand how you feel. You’ve already told me how you’ve lived your life fearing men. This means you’re afraid of kissing, but also of being taken advantage of, because you’re a female.” He whispered, his face level with mine. “But I want to give you this gift, so that you no longer have to fear men.” He said calmly. I looked into his eyes, his words calming me instantly.
“Thank you.” I said closing my eyes. He gently held my chin in his hand and kissed my cheek. I tensed but forced myself to remain calm, putting my trust into Liam.
“Are you ready?” He asked quietly.
“What do I have to do?” I asked self consciously. He smiled softly.
“Nothing, I’ll do everything.” He replied.
“Okay. I’m ready.” I said, taking a deep breath. He smiled and I felt his lips touch mine. Unconsciously I clamped my mouth shut, my heart racing with fright. I closed my eyes; I knew Liam wanted this, not only to give me his gift, but I also knew he wanted to kiss me. I had to remain calm at least, for him.
“I’m sorry” I whispered as he pulled away.
“It’s okay.” He whispered back before kissing me again. This time I focused my tension on my hands; clamping them tightly, whilst I let my lips remain still. He pulled himself closer toward me, holding his body against mine as his lips slowly moved themselves past mine.
Suddenly I felt his grip tighten and I opened my eyes to see his own, slowly turning red before me. I tried to pull back, but his grip tightened around my jaw and he forced himself upon me once more, his once gentle movements now heavy and cruel. I fought away the panic rising within me, my tears the only sign of my terror as his tongue grazed the inside of my mouth.
I felt disgusted, and grabbed onto his shoulders, pushing as hard as I could. He pulled away and snarled inhumanly; his nails digging into my cheeks. I opened my mouth to relieve the pain against my jaw, and he moved forward once more to pash me. My terror grew beyond control and I let out a scream, digging my nails into the side of Liam’s neck.
A shudder ran through his body and he pulled back suddenly; pushing himself away, moving to the far side of the bench. He grabbed his head in his hands, resting his head against his knees as he pulled his blonde hair between his hands. I stood in shock, breathing in short quick breaths as I saw the tears fall from his once again blue eyes. He looked up at me in horror and shook his head.
“I’m so sorry Susan.” He whispered, his face distraught with shame. I stared, not sure how to respond. I was scared, nauseous and wanted to run away, but I knew it hadn’t been Liam just then. It had been the demon inside. Liam slowly moved forward and I flinched as he gently touched the red marks across my cheek, another wave of pain filling his face; more tears fell. “Please forgive me.” He said closing his eyes. “I don’t know what happened, I was moving in to kiss you when everything suddenly went black. I… I had no control.” He mumbled through his tears. I felt a tear trickle down my own face, and I moved forward to hug Liam.
“It’s okay.” I whispered. Liam shook his head.
“No it’s not. I took advantage of you… I broke your trust.” He cried softly. I grimaced and held him tightly.
“No… you didn’t mean to.” I murmured into his ear. And I meant it. Suddenly I felt the world sway around me, and a chill ran down my spine. It was cold, really cold, but it was the middle of Summer!
“What wrong?” Liam asked worriedly, pulling away and gently grabbing my shoulders. I rubbed my arms and almost blacked out as the world swayed around me once more.
“So… c-c-c-cold.” I whispered, my mind becoming cloudy with every passing moment. Eventually I could take it no more, and the world collapsed around me; the only thing stopping me from falling was Liam’s grip around my shoulders.
***
Liam looked worriedly at Susan as she fainted in front of him. His whole body wracked with guilt at what he’d done. Why? He screamed in his head. You’ve only ever come out when I’ve been angry! Laughter rang in his head; the demon within him.
-Just having a little fun-
The voice called into his mind. Liam cursed and gently felt Susan’s forehead; she was burning up with fever. He knew she would have a reaction, but had one ever been this bad before? He gently picked her up and walked quickly up the hill toward his house. It wasn’t long before he was inside his room where he placed Susan gently upon his bed.
He stroked her forehead gently, making sure she was in a comfortable position before running into his bathroom to grab a wet face towel. Draining out most of the water he walked back and placed the towel upon her head, and turned on the aircon. The room cooled quickly and Liam sat by Susan; holding her hand and willing her to be okay. It was normal to faint, but the fever he wasn’t sure about. As time rolled by his tension grew. He wanted to take her to a hospital, but would they be able to help? This was something beyond their knowledge. He shook his head in confusion.
“I’ll give it a few hours.” He whispered to himself. “If you’re not okay by then…” He closed his eyes and leant against Susan’s body. “Please be okay.” He whispered once more.
It was about half an hour after the sun had set when Susan finally began to stir. Liam; wound up with stress, almost cried out in joy as her eyelids flickered. He stroked her cheek and leaned over her.
“Are you okay?” He asked, once again feeling her forehead. It was still hot, in fact, hotter than it had been before, and it was getting hotter. He replaced the wet towel with a new one and moved back to Susan’s side. She groaned beneath him and he gently shook her.
“Susan? Come on wake up.” He whispered desperately, kneeling beside the bed to grab her hand. Suddenly he noticed the face towel steaming upon her forehead, and her hand growing in temperature beneath his own. He stared in horror as flames began growing around her. Flames that licked her skin without burning. The sheets beneath her caught fire and he quickly grabbed her in his arms, fighting to stop the fire growing upon the bed. At last he managed to scatter the flames with his mind, and he focused on joining her flames with his own so that he would not be burnt.
He looked around for a fireproof place, and, spotting his bathtub, ran toward it. He gently placed her inside, trying to dispel the flames, but only managing to decrease them. He didn’t know what was happening, but Susan was somehow creating the flames.
“Susan!” He yelled loudly, leaning over her. “Please wake up!”
***
Wake up. I heard the familiar voice in my mind and smiled, knowing it was Liam. Wherever I was it was warm; really warm. I opened my eyes and waited for them to focus upon my surroundings. I continued to wait but still they would not focus. Suddenly a blurry head appeared above me; Liam. Well, it looked like him anyway, I couldn’t see through the flames. Suddenly it hit me; fire! I screamed and tried to move but Liam held me down. What was he doing?
“Let go!” I yelled. “There’s a fire!” I cried in panic. Liam shook his head.
“No, it’s you.” I heard him say worriedly. I shook my head.
“Stop joking Liam. Come on you should be able to stop it!” I cried, remembering how he’d shown me his fire-wielding abilities.
“I’m trying, but I can’t!” He cried desperately. “I think it’s you! Just try to control them. Force the flames to disappear.” He murmured gently. I nodded my head and pictured the fire in my mind, forcing it to disappear. It was a struggle, as if the fire didn’t want to die, despite that I was the one imagining it. Minutes passed as I fought against the flames, I could feel my energy sapping. Slowly I felt the room cooling until eventually the fire inside my mind was gone entirely. I opened my eyes and saw Liam smiling at me.
“You did it.” He whispered. I smiled lopsidedly and sat up with the help of Liam.
“What... happened?” I asked looking around at the scorched bathtub. Liam shook his head.
“You passed out for about three hours. I was scared shitless.” He murmured. I noted the swearword; that meant he was really stressed. “Then suddenly you burst into fire. I tried to control it but could only do so much.” He whispered in disgrace. I pulled myself out of the bath and hugged him.
“It’s all good now.” I said comfortingly. “Maybe you really did share your power with me.”
Liam shook his head. “No, it doesn’t work like that. It means…” He paused before looking me in the eye. “… that you already possessed that ability.” He murmured; eyes shining.
“What do you mean?” I asked in confusion. He smiled proudly.
“It means, you’re able to control fire like me. I just opened the gate so to speak.” He said grinning. I stared a little.
“Serial?” I asked in astonishment. He nodded and hugged me again.
“We were meant to be together.” He whispered into my ear. I smiled before pulling back to look him in the eye.
“But… don’t other people have this power hidden as well?”
Liam waved his head side to side. “Not really, some people have hidden skills. But that’s like, predicting the weather. Fire is rare even among demons. Among people it’s well, I don’t think it’s even existed before.” He explained excitedly. “When I first saw you, I instantly felt a connection. I guess this is why.”
I smiled and nodded. “I felt the same. When I saw you, I just felt drawn to you.” I hugged him again and he held me tightly.
“At least you’re okay.” He said laughing. “I was so worried.”
I squeezed him tightly. “I can imagine. I don’t know how I would have managed.”
Liam smiled. “I love you.” He whispered almost inaudibly. I closed my eyes and smiled.
“Me too.”
So that’s another of my weird love daydreams, which are unusually frequent (sorry for the random first person to third person change in the middle there. That’s just how it came out). It’s so long because I had only just woken up and was still half asleep in bed when I thought of it. Anyway, this Liam person is a character I made up in a story once. Although, he has a personality more suited to my taste in this dream, the main idea is that he’s a demon born from a human; so he sorta has a demon side and a human side. He can control fire and use telekinesis and is really strong… ^.^
What this means is that I have really high expectations in love, well, in the perfect love scenario anyway. The random scare in the middle? I have no idea, I guess it’s just me relaying my fears about people, and the gaining skills at the end is because I’m still determined to be a super awesome hero one day. Heh heh, yeah… Hope you enjoyed reading.
